Writing




He was an open book
a book full of all life offers
the gloomy and the dark
the joyful and the bright

- N  

(Date unknown) 2016

In the midst of falling




There's something about you,
something, words can't even 
explain

- N 2016 

Thoughts of you





She looked out the window,
at the trees swaying
The car lights in the distance
but, all she could see is 
you

- N  17/12/2016 8:59pm

Clouded feelings




As her lips quivered,
tears fell from her eyes and
the pain formed in the back 
of her throat
she knew the truth, 
that she'd never get closer to 
you
but, she completely adored 
you

- N 2016

Pain and Hurt over you




The sight of him made her heart flutter
she felt comfortable around him
being next to him, smelling his scent

- N 2016

Eyes sights




When your armed touched her shoulder,
she had a feeling that you
may be someone she cared about
some  day 

- N 2016

Intimate feelings




It was my mistake falling for someone
who was taken
But, what gets to me is
how I couldn't change how my heart felt
My heart made space for you.

- N 2016

- A heart has it's own mind




Every voice in the street sounds like you
except it's not 
Maybe in my head i want it to be you
 but the reality is, 

i'm just seeing and hearing
something I want to see and hear

- N 1/1/17   9.01pm

You



Everywhere I look I see you in my mind
Every voice I hear, I hear you..

- N 1/1/17

- Heartbreak




And in all my words,
is everything I ever felt

 - N 2017

a lot about you 




She sat staring out the window, looking at the 
world around
trying desperately to forget about the 
one thing on her mind

HIM

the one who was in her thoughts, dreams 
and reality.


- N 2/1/2017


- If only you knew







She cared about him, like no other in the world
All she dreamt of is, his attention
Though, she knew his full attention would never be on her
That his focus and attention would be on the one he loved
In the end, he was always going to be taken

and
after all the joy and pain,
in the end, he wasn't free for the world to have

and
Ultimately, she would be the one hurting,
cause after all, 
he began to have a place in her heart.

- N 31/12/16   (6.43pm)  



And even after the hurt and pain,
she still imagined him walking 
around the corner,
coming to find her 

- N  31/12/16  




You never know your bodies full capability of 
liking another human, 
until you're hurting.

- N 31/12/16




Her heart felt broken,
she cried over you
however, you wouldn't care about her,
after all, she was just the one
who gave you attention

- N 31/12/16



What hurts most is,
you were on my mind
in my dreams
words in my journal
you were growing pieces
in my 
heart 


- N  31/12/16



It worries me 
that I 
may have to see
you.

I got over 
you,
I don't want
to think about 
you again.

The feelings
I had
for you,
were real

You, pulled me 
along
by a string

Never being
completely and
wholeheartedly
interested
in me.

- N






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And suddenly you became like a drink I needed and wanted,
You sucked my emotions out of me, leaving me dry and empty. -N 

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I couldn't tell him how much he affected me
that I was writing.
Writing, about my dreams and desires, I
longed to share with him.
He was the one who sucked my words 
from me whole and 
place it on ink, which I
cherished in my soul. - N


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They sat talking on the phone all night,
she cried over another guy.
She didn't know then, what she knows now
and that is
the guy listening on the other end,
is all she ever wanted. - N

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And she realised that all along,
she had adored him;
for the one which he was. - N

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I write online about you, 
hoping you would
feel the same as
I do about
you. - N

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She knew deep down in her heart, 
he didn't want her.
Even though she continued,
hoping that one day
he would see that maybe 
they are meant to 
be together. - N

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And the pain she felt for him,
gave her inspiration to write 
words
from her soul about him. - N









My throat sunk into the 
depths of my heart
The thought of you,
pursuing someone else
made my mind blank
and my heart quiver
Realisation hit that 
I simply mean't 
nothing to you



About a guy I adore and shouldn't

23/10/2016   -   9.43pm

@NataliaBeth







Until now I didn't realise how much I liked you
was only when I heard talk about you
That, I discovered my heart in the 
pit of my stomach and 
my teeth against my lips 
Keeping my heartbreak in

A moment I don't wish upon anyone

23/10/2016  -  9.53pm

@NataliaBeth






I sat there in silence
listening to what was being 
said about you 
Taking it all in
is when I realised I was 
in too deep

Fallen too deep

23/10/2016  -  9.57pm

@NataliaBeth







I listened and watched
struck by the world being spoken
out into the world around
words
i did not know what affect
me as much as it did

Heartbroken is the word

23/10/2016   

@NataliaBeth







You play me like a fool
continually
you forget I read and 
put pen to paper
I'm more mature, wiser 
and a thinker

Jokes on you 

23/10/2016

@NataliaBeth 





Between the compliments
and
snark comments
the words placed on
paper lay in between

Keeping the memories alive

23/10/2016

@NataliaBeth



You forgot 
I write
I write about people, things 
and life

Forgotten importance 

23/10/2016

@NataliaBeth







You spent too long
longing for him
When he isn't a man, he is weak
My darling friends made
me recognise it
I knew, but was blinded

Your Excuse: I'm a guy who likes sex
I don't like to use social media
because i feel lethargic.....

I say: You're weak, you're making excuses 
for other parts of your life

But ultimately

Your longing for the person you're pursuing  


Grow up

23/10/2016

@NataliaBeth




Tea
books 
words
They are a safe place

Safety in numbers

23/10/2016

@NataliaBeth






your compliments were like 
flowers to my heart 
simple yet beautiful

But 

the low comments were like
thorns that constantly prick
simple yet disappointing 


-  Lessons on how to be treated 

 25/10/2016

@NataliaBeth




I lay down at night thinking about the world,
the moon, the stars, the true beauty
my brain spoke the words i needed to hear 
and write
needed to imprint with ink on paper

- Beauty within

25/10/2016

@NataliaBeth





You pushed the hair off my face
like a feather falling off a bird 

so soft, so delicate 

and in that moment i was filled 
with joy and wonder 

soft

25/10/2016

@NataliaBeth






i'm going to tell you about heartbreak and the horrible things that can happen in life.
they flirt with you. they ask you out. tell you want you want to hear. they say 'i like you for you'. they kiss hug and hold you. they get all your desires out of you, your dreams, your wishes, your hopes and what you want to achieve through out your life time.
they break up with you. leave you crying out in the open. later they admit that they cheated on you. they let the girl they cheated on you with walk all over you. 

but at the end of the day

you're stronger then that and will rise up and shine

Life lessons for the younger generation (you can do it)

24/10/2016   -   8.00pm

@NataliaBeth




i always liked the idea of poems, poetry
the words, the story, a deeper connection
it was only until i realised i liked a guy 

too deeply
too strongly

that eventually i had to put pen to paper
i had to let this feeling out into the world
this is where my love, my addiction
for poem, poetry started

love for words

24/10/2016  -  10.31pm

@NataliaBeth





i sat there no movement 
eyes open wide
a sore heart breaking apart 
disbelief within
the moment i lost someone i never had 

we have all experienced it

24/10/2016   -   10.36pm

@NataliaBeth 



You were the ink on paper
the pen in my journal
the words in between the lines
the heart and soul
captured by the writing and 
trapped in pages full of 
magic

the magic in words

24/10/2016  - 10.41pm

@NataliaBeth






that thing you lay in bed thinking or doing at 12am
that
that is what you're most passionate about


knowing your passion

24/10/2016

@NataliaBeth 





i used to think about you in bed at night 

But

what lay between the pages full of words
is hope
hoping that something that will never come

i realized what a waste of time you were

- Hope 

24/10/2016

@NataliaBeth




you were not worth
my 
words

- realizing my worth

24/10/2016  -  10.47pm

@NataliaBeth





your smile was like a 
dynamite 
it pulsated through my 
body
plummeting towards my 
heart
suddenly i had no words
all i knew was my eyes 
were staring at only 
you


feelings so strong

24/20/2016 

@NataliaBeth









Bright Lights

They shine, there is something about bright lights
Shining together as one
Sparkling in the night sky,
For all the world to see
Flickering and still
Moving and in the same spot
Like, beautiful creatures in a small suburb
An experience, as if we were living in a big city
Catching a glimpse in the corner of your eye
Nothing compares
Night time is my favourite
Looking from suburb lights to stars up above
What did we do?
To deserve this beauty
This, magical beauty, from 5 to 50
Sitting up above, at eyes sight
I imagine humans that pass
See them up close, see the beauty

That rubs off on everyone below.

By Natalia Litwinczuk




Opened Door
Look at that
What he did
The way he ran and opened up the door for me
I’ve never experienced it before
I’ve heard about it and see it in movies
Catching a glimpse in the glass door reflection
That moment of happiness
And hopeful connection
Did that really happen?
A hope in a world that is a wired generation
Eyes wide open or you will miss it
A piece of a gentlemen in a modern world
No view of judgement or
Holding back
Hand on the glass door, opening wide
From eyes in shock, to a happy heart, to a messy brain
The silhouette of his body
Places in my mind with no breath in place
I looked down with a whirl wind in my mind
What a fine guy he is




Dark Sky
There is something fascinating about the big window, that
Looks out into the sky
The road, to trees, trees to sky
Head held upward in admire, of
Our beautiful world we desire
The hours of true beauty and
Your feet up high to increase comfort as the world passes by
Pen in one hand, Journal in the other
Watching cars below,
Interested in the different lives of others
Looking out at the dark sky
The clouds, to moon, moon to stars
With no extensive knowledge of what’s above
With remembrance of the big world
Seeing the light shine, the light that others see too
An evening to reflect and watch
To enjoy the cold, from dressing gown to blanket and socks
When we look up above and see the same thing
I feel at ease with everything


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He broke my heart - causing the deepest of wounds 
Confusion trying to sort it out - failed by jealous advice, disbelief and uncertainty 
A heart so broken, left in pieces
Putting myself out there into the unknown, a heart aching - that was the end

The end of a time being carefree, loving you, experiencing the new
A
treasured memory forever 
You take over my mine - consuming my thoughts and dreams

Memories of you placed in my heart, grateful for what you taught me
For the time together - will always be my treasure

Felt like a dream I was living, so much wished to be said 

LATENESS IS NOW.


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You were light in my darkness, so bright everyone knew who  you were

You were you, people loved you 
There was something about the way you gave a slight smirk

The way you walked around doing your own thing

From you, I learnt I was good enough - that I deserve someone great

I don't know if love exists yet, though I am content
It's strange, you know - how two people can care so much about each other,
yet people move on
Life goes on

People get hurt, but - they move on

In a relationship, do both human beings remember the memories created, the feelings?

Or 
Only one?

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Sitting by the window, 
View of the mountains in tact
Slowing disappearing, from the rain appearing
Coated in a white blanket, carefully fading away
What beautiful things the world does, such beauty it has
The mountain skyline, slowing shining through
With an icing sugar coating
No noise in the moment,
Only trees swaying from the wind below
A white frost outlook to the world in toe
What magical true beauty is on show
Showing off to the world around.




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Looking out the same window,
Grey skies in tune
I look around, though still think of you
Different sounds, different thoughts
The world seems in order, the future
Of you and the world is unpredictable
As is the sun and blue sky on a grey day
I discover more of me but the confused thoughts aren’t less of me
Scattered grey clouds up above,
Oh what beauty the world concedes
Laying down, hand on chin
Looking out at the trees blowing from the wind

Confiding in the world around,
What beautiful surrounds.



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As I look out the same window,
It seems as though the world has changed,
Though, it’s not
Fully clothed and different sounds, it’s a change but still the same
The world, it’s getting older
– As the future is as unpredictable as the weather
I discover more of it, but nothing of me
That isn’t uncomfortable
For I know where to come to see the magnificent beauty around me
Before a car would cry out a screech of wheels against the ground
I was content with the world around
Sitting with a warm blanket around,
The thought of you was true
Scattered around the world,
Different sun, clouds and shine
No loneliness around,
Just more of the world to be found.


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The thought of you, tugs at my heart like a dog
tugs on its leash.
I don't understand this feeling or what it is.
All I can say, is there is something about you.
Something that takes me back years
and years.
Takes me back to those years. Memories. Tears.
It's strange, I don't know whether I could ever picture 
us together, though
I have some sort of feeling for you 
and it feels true, but 
maybe it's just because you are a good guy 
and there are not many around.
For now, I sit here and think 
of 
what a top guy you are




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There is something about looking up at the sky.
So serene, so fascinating,
Something magical about looking at the different
sights around you.
The world contains unimaginable beauty,
an indescribable beauty.
There are no words to describe it.
It's real beauty, like a girl with no make up,
it's real.
It's fresh.
Beautiful on it's own,
natural in a world that is changing around.
There's something about looking around at the
'new' world, earphones in
but listening to classic songs from classic movies.
So many people in a modern world, doing different 
things.
A modern world with humans changing
who they are, to fit into the mould
of the best and new.
There are not many people who are

themselves in this world..

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I don't look at humans 
with a slight glance 
anymore

I look at humans
with something in mind,
Everywhere I look
I see poetry.

Humans are people, 
they contain numerous
amounts of
layers.

I wish I could look
at you and
not think of
poetry.



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He said he 
didn't like 
something about my 
personality

He broke my heart,
he also made me 
believe.

Believe in myself,
believe I deserve something 
great,
believe I am good enough,
and believe I 
am valuable of someones
love.

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There 
is 
no one
would 
rather 
dream 
of 
then 
you.


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There is something about you
that makes me crush on you.
You're a great friend.
I told you once I liked you,
I can't ever admit it 
again
I know I'm not good enough
for you.
You make me feel good.
You inspire me to be more adventurous.
I still think of all the memories I 
had with you.


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How beautiful would it be
to find someone 
who is inlove with all of 
you.

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Thinking of you
keeps me up at night
It may only be a dream
but it feels real to me
You are the one I dream 
about,
the one 
I think about when
trying to fall asleep


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Darling, our parents 
taught us to go after 
what we want.

When it comes to 
love
why do we say
what is different
to that feeling
                              thumping in our 
                                                     hearts.


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You're my last
thought before 
my eyes close
in the dark.

Do you think 
about me?


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